Wow..

Dear Xanga,

Drama is so overrated and overplayed, I swear to god. This past week has been filled with drama from not only (former) friends online but people here in my city. My school got tagged again. That makes it the 3rd or 4th time this year that these dumb fucks have wasted their time doing this. Not to mention the drama between friends and family. I've had alot on my plate this past week but tomorrow will change it all for I am going to prom with my beloved. The highlight of my week and thus far, (possibly) the year. I hope it goes smoothly and no drama arises whilst me and Shawn are there. A good time is all Im looking for.

I wish to elaborate more with the whole drama online subject. People have seriously gone bananas. Im just not into dealing with online drama. If I want drama, I will just go have one of my friends tell me about their troubles. I mean, I got personal drama to deal with. Ben is so right, these people aren't worth my time. That's why we (me and these people) don't talk anymore ^-^

I think the cosmos are out totally of balance this week. Damn cosmos.

As I said before, our school got tagged (AGAIN) on Wenesday. The only thing that people are really pissed about is the fact that they defaced Mr. Graber's (for those who don't know, he was the principal of my school before he died like a year or so ago) memorials. Many of the older SSHS students still have much respect for Mr. Graber and find it heartless to do such a thing, to disrecpest the deceased. But, the cherry ontop of the sundae is the fact that these people who did this, whoever they are, couldn't spell even if their lives depended upon it. Instead of spelling "nigger", they spelled "niger" like the country. So, I guess we're dealing with some pretty dumb ass taggers. Dumb asses shouldn't be allowed to tag. That should be a law somewhere...

Well, thanks for listneing Xanga old buddy, I needed to put my thoughts into something tangeable? No, no...Memorable? I dunno, something that I can read later...

Your fabbity fab fab owner,

Mochi

P.S.

I love my Shawn

Life is looking up for me right now. All this happiness really makes me think back to my old, depressed (EMO) days. The days when I had nobody to trust and I was as bitter to the world as chewing an Advil tablet... the days when I was always pissed off at nothing and rarely smiled.... the days when I went through emotions in a cycle...the days when, I guess you could say, my heart was cold. Im so glad those days are over, end even more that I know they're over. Though this faze of me was done over a year ago(two years I think), I still ponder it sometimes. Like, why was I like that? What made me feel those feelings of bitterness, hatred and sorrow? I guess I will never know. All I do know is that Im a better person now and it feels great.

On a fantastic note, I surprised the hell out of myself today by doing pretty good on the Chem. final. I expected to hear a low score, a usual to me but, I didn't get a low score. When my teacher told me my score, I froze, unsure of what I really just heard. I thought "I couldn't have just heard that." So I asked him again. I got a 84/109 points on it, a "C". Yeah, its not a grand score but for me, that is a SHOCK. I did way better than most of the kids that I asked. Now, I feel motivaited to do better in that class. My teacher really wants me to pass but its just so hard. Chem is like another math class and we all know that I do horribly at math. I suppose I should just do all the work and everything will be okay, and not skip out on those weekly extra credit points. I don't know why I want to try because Im pretty fucked over for credits (one of the reasons Im going for my GED next year when Im finally 18) but, Im gonna try a bit more. I always need that boost of confidence to get me in gear. Honestly, seeing low marks on papers, quizzes and tests really is a discouragement, another reason for not doing work in school. Im so unmotivaited and what's work without motivation? Well, Im off to clean my room because it looks like a F4 tornado bitch slapped it and made it cry before my family gets here tomorrow.

Ta!

Got assigned some huge report yesterday. Its apart of my English class.

When Im finished, it should be like this

• About 29 pages
• Power Point presentation
• Oral presentation of the whole shebang

Now, I don't mind the whole idea of the project. Its very much free because we get to pick who we do the person we do it on  (I picked Jim Morrison) but the fact that its so intricate and so long is what I regret...I guess I should ready myself for being buried in pages and pages  of work -_-